Next steps

As I mentioned a couple of days ago, I have decided to hire myself.  I typed my last post and immediately designed my own business card.  I decided to offer my creative services independently.  There was a very minor snag in my plan, but nothing I couldn't find my way around. 

Here's the deal...

A few weeks ago, I volunteered to make the best funeral program imaginable for someone that was very dear to me.  Because her death was very unexpected, there was a lot to take care of in a very short amount of time.  I gathered all of the photos that the immediate family wanted to include, and I began my work.  I took my time to edit the tone and contrast of the older photos, cropped the images, and worked on the perfect layout.  I must say that because I knew her, I thought that it would be rather hard to look at pictures of her past, but it actually helped me in my grief.  I almost felt like I was behind the camera in each of the the shots.  I felt very honored to contribute my time and services to a family that I love in their time of need.  I thought that I did a great job on the funeral program, and apparently so did everyone that attended her service.  This of course ignited my entrepreneurial fire.  I decided that I could create funeral programs. 

So here's the problem that I faced when designing my business cards.  How do I design a business card that will show my design capability, while at the same time remain somber as a means of sympathy towards grieving individuals?  This was something that I definitely had to get around.  I didn't want to limit myself to designing funeral programs, nor did I want to exclude the task either.   I decided to keep the colors to a minimum, but used rounded edges as a means of standing out.  I am really looking forward to my cards arriving next week so that I can hit the ground running.  

From the ground up

So, the last time that I took time to write, things were looking rather hopeful for me.  Currently, I can't say that I feel all that hopeful.  I finally graduated in May with a BA, and am now working on a MFA.  Unfortunately, I am one of those individuals that had everything all lined up, or so I thought.  I planned to land my dream job upon graduation, then start searching for my first home.  Well, neither of those have gone as planned.  I have yet to find myself in the type of career that I had long dreamed of while I was knee deep in my undergrad "career".  I am beginning to think that maybe I should abandon my stubbornness and apply for positions that are not at all related to my degree.  I am the person that always said that I would not get into any field that was not related to my degree, but now I'm not so sure.  I have gotten to that terrible place where I find myself asking if all of the time and borrowed money  was worth it.  I mean, all during high school (and even some of middle school) you hear that you must attend college for better opportunities-better paying jobs, and an advantage over those that do not.  But now, I'm not so sure about that.  I know many that didn't graduate from college and they are currently in a much better position than I am.  Just something that I've been thinking about lately.

On another note...

Instead of me going on and on about what has yet to come my way, I'm going to end this by saying I will be working for myself.  Yes, that is correct.  I have officially hired myself!  Details to follow...

Friend?, Enemy? EX!

I can be your best friend, or your worst enemy. What I don't understand is why anyone would want one more enemy in the world. If I had a choice, I'd like to make more friends, well maybe not a friend, but someone that I don't mind dealing with. With that said, I can't put my mind around the idea of someone telling me he loves me (and I'm absolutely certain that he does) but insists on putting me thru agony. Please give me a break! It's been over two years since we've broken up, and you still have a problem with me??? Get over it! But if we can't be friends, I promise I'll lose no sleep.

My Skill Set

I wish I could answer this one question that's been troubling me lately:  What does the world want from me? 

Very random, I know.  I'm just trying to figure out what is expected of me.  I mean from possible employers, down to family and friends.  I keep coming up with the same answer, I can only be me.  Either I have what you want, or I don't.  My only concern with this is that more often than not these days, I don't have what is wanted.  At least not by employers.  Well, scratch that, there's actually only one potential employer that I'm referring to.  I'm just amazed by the rejection email that I received.  The final statement read, "While you have a good background, we've decided to move forward with other candidates whose experience better aligns with what we're looking for at this time."  

????  Really????  How hard is it really to pick up a phone for a 6 hour shift and speak with current customers regarding their membership (I'll be good by not mentioning the name of the organization)?  Does it really matter what skill set I have when it comes to this type of job.  I mean, you know that I can talk on the phone because you called me for the phone interview.  I would imagine that I can read a script if needed.  And, I'm pretty certain that I capable of dialing a phone number.   I would love to know the experience that these "other candidates" had.  Maybe they have two heads, which allows them to talk to more than one customer at once.  Sure, that's what it was.  

Torri

Silent heart, but far from silent.
I could hear you all along.
If my heart could beat for us both, it would've.
That's true love, a feeling. A feeling that encompasses everything. A feeling that doesn't require any other sense to be activated.
Always know that you will forever be loved.

The Return

Out of site, but hardly out of mind is my dear blog. I've gotten one of the hardest semesters behind me, now ready to face the very last semester, and final course, of my undergrad career. With this before me, and so many things behind me, now is the time for me to become the person that I am meant to be. I have so many great ideas that I plan to explore. See you very soon...

Getting older

I believe that most people often wish they could go back to the days when worries were so simple.  The days when you thought it was the end of the world simply because you were put on punishment and couldn't watch your favorite show before going to bed.  Or the days when you just knew you would be punished for a low score, or not cleaning your room, or something that you look at now as trivial.  I miss those days so much, and did not appreciate them at all when I was actually living them. The funny thing is I still remember my mom telling me that I would.  And I would swear that she didn't know what she was talking about.  I just wanted to grow up, and be able to do what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it.  Now that I'm of age, I still see so many boundaries, in fact maybe more.  Then my only boundary was really my age, now there's previous obligations, deadlines, and most importantly COST.  By cost, I'm not just talking money.  I'm referring to all of the opportunity costs.  I'm just looking at the things that I give up on the daily basis to achieve things that I feel are important, and beneficial.  I can honestly say that I've taken the scenic route when it comes to my college career, but truthfully, I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.  I just have to remind myself that I will get what I deserve in due time.  


Although I do wish sometimes that simplicity was right around the corner. I miss the days of lying in my mom's bed when I was ill, or going to my 'Big Ma' to look at old pictures, or knowing that tomorrow everything was going to be ok, etc.  Now, it seems that life is filled with so many uncertainties.  Simplicity is now a distant st ranger.