First thing first

I printed samples and dropped them off at four of the local funeral homes on yesterday.  I really don't know how to feel about things just yet.  I'm a little concerned that I wont be allowed the opportunity to provide my services because I feel that people are likely to continue business with those that they've built a rapport with.  My concern is also coupled with the fact that printing alone cost me over $50 for the samples that I provided.  I have never been a gambler and don't like spending money on something that doesn't guarantee a great ROI.  Call me crazy but it is just way too close to the holidays to spend unnecessary money.  I'm just praying that God does have my back on this journey. 

Taking Control

For starters, I haven't written because the hard drive on the computer that I bought a couple months ago is just no more.  My phone's browser doesn't support the site, so that wasn't an option either. 

Next, I was not the most qualified for the position that I hoped to attain.  I've got to say that it really hurt to read the email that broke the news to me.  It honestly took everything in me to keep from crying.  Since I've graduated and received all of these messages that have basically let me know that I'm never qualified, or that someone else is better qualified, I've been feeling very inadequate.  I really don't know how to feel about these constant disappointments.  I will say that I'm tired of not feeling like I'm good enough when I know that I am.  I am very well capable of exceeding the expectations of those that won't give me a chance.

Finally, I've fallen too far behind in my online classes with no computer.  Sure, I could have  used the library that is in walking distance, but that would've been too easy.  Unfortunately, the library's computers don't have the very expensive software required for my courses.  So, that idea quickly left. 

Well, there's the BAD news!!!

On to the beginning that I've created for myself.  I've decided to go ahead with  my idea to offer my services to funeral homes in the area, creating funeral programs.  I've contacted several funeral homes in the area that said that I can drop off my samples and prices.  I'm very excited, and very hopeful that this may be the move that I needed to make.  I will be going to print my samples today, and dropping by the funeral homes tomorrow.  FINGERS CROSSED!!!

In addition to the funeral programs, I've also posted craigslist ads directed towards small businesses offering my Marketing/Advertising services.  We'll see how that goes...With craigslist, you never know. 

More news

So, there was yet another glitch in my big idea- My computer completely failed me!  This unfortunate disaster is no small concern either, I am almost certain that the problem is the hard drive.  There goes my shot at working for myself right now.  ALL of the work that I could have possibly done would've required my computer, and some very much needed software.  There goes my assignments for my online course, that were due today.  And here I go, at my mom's house on my brother's computer because my iPhone doesn't currently have a supported browser to add to my blog.

On a brighter note, I do have a second interview with a great company that I interviewed for on last week.  So that I don't get my hopes up, I have decided to accept that if it is for me, I will get the position no matter what. 

Well, let me get off and try to somehow retrieve all of the info from my computer...

They've arrived, and I'm not too far behind...

I haven't written since my cards arrived by mail two days ago.  I must admit that I am very excited!  I feel like a kid at Christmas :-)  I'm now asking, 'What do I do at this point?"  As if I didn't already know... I'm going to market myself!  I plan to talk much more about this experience very soon. 

Today is...

It has really been one of those days...

The kind of day that you thank God has finally ended.  It's the kind of day that you appreciate once the sun has set, you ball up in the fetal position and you pray that tomorrow will be better. 

Well, let me not be such brat about my day.  It really wasn't all that bad.  I am happy to report that my phone didn't ring much at all today so there was no wishful thinking that it was a future employer.  Is this really a good thing??? I don't know.  Life goes on.  Well, so they tell me.

hmm...

I got on here to talk about my dream.  But I really don't know how to begin to share it... I'll just keep it to myself for now.

Waiting and Waiting

I have nothing to take my mind off of my phone.  Well actually, my silent phone that doesn't have job offers pouring in. Or better yet, my phone that hasn't received a single interview request.  I've only checked my email 1, 000 times today.  Maybe the 1, 001 time will be the one that says, "We would like to schedule an interview."  This is not an exaggeration at all!  Despite my saying that I plan to work independently, I am still very interested in a regular, full-time opportunity. That is why I find myself so disappointed in the way things are panning out for me. 

In addition to checking my email like a maniac for 90% the day, I've been trying to convince myself that maybe they have attempted to call me, but have been unable to reach me.  Yeah right! But there is actually some logic to this crazy notion...While my are code is the same as the area code of the locations that I am patiently awaiting response from, my cell was actually purchased in a different city.  This means that anyone that wants to call from a land line will actually have to dial the area code + number.  I don't know if this is truly the case, but the possibility does make me feel a little bit better.  Maybe, just maybe, it isn't my experience.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT