Getting older

I believe that most people often wish they could go back to the days when worries were so simple.  The days when you thought it was the end of the world simply because you were put on punishment and couldn't watch your favorite show before going to bed.  Or the days when you just knew you would be punished for a low score, or not cleaning your room, or something that you look at now as trivial.  I miss those days so much, and did not appreciate them at all when I was actually living them. The funny thing is I still remember my mom telling me that I would.  And I would swear that she didn't know what she was talking about.  I just wanted to grow up, and be able to do what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it.  Now that I'm of age, I still see so many boundaries, in fact maybe more.  Then my only boundary was really my age, now there's previous obligations, deadlines, and most importantly COST.  By cost, I'm not just talking money.  I'm referring to all of the opportunity costs.  I'm just looking at the things that I give up on the daily basis to achieve things that I feel are important, and beneficial.  I can honestly say that I've taken the scenic route when it comes to my college career, but truthfully, I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.  I just have to remind myself that I will get what I deserve in due time.  


Although I do wish sometimes that simplicity was right around the corner. I miss the days of lying in my mom's bed when I was ill, or going to my 'Big Ma' to look at old pictures, or knowing that tomorrow everything was going to be ok, etc.  Now, it seems that life is filled with so many uncertainties.  Simplicity is now a distant st ranger.  

I bet it shows

I bet it shows
How I can't recall much of anything before we met.
I bet it shows 
How what we share I could never forget.
I bet it shows 
When we kiss how much I wish it could last forever.
I bet it shows 
When I smile that in this life I'd leave you, never.
I bet it shows
In the stars that we were destined to be.
I bet it shows
In my heart that you were made for me.
I bet it shows 
That I have never been in love like this before.
I bet it shows
That all my life I could wish for nothing more.

Hmm...

Men, men, they play with your heart.
The more that you trust them...


Enough said!

Sidewalk Stranger

on his last leg
what did he say to those that passed?
did he look up for help,
or did he quietly pass along?
so desperate is he 
the quite stranger, always ignored.
can you tell me how he got here,
why is it that he has nowhere to go?
i remember him walking 
where, i cannot say.
he looked as if he had a plan
but what could it be?
i imagine...
him to be someone's father, 
someone that may have lost his way,
maybe someone's friend,
but definitely someone's son.

One month later...

I've been away for a while, but I've been very productive.  I've written a few mini-masterpieces (LOL), worked on my portfolio, and made some changes in my personal life.  I will not go on another hiatus! I am absolutely determined to to keep everything posted, even if it kills me.  Well, I hope it doesn't kill me,  but here goes...


Random thought:  How is it possible for me to hate about you the same thing that made me fall for you?